Where to draw the line

In my quest for truth, I cant ignore the fact that, objectively, Gd appears to be a figment of our imaginations.  So many religions have existed throughout human existence, all in complete contradiction with one another, but with one common purpose: To answer where we came from, and where we should be going.

So, there are three possibilities here:

  1. None of them have any element of truth.
  2. One of them is true.
  3. All of them were meant to be as they are by Gd.
I’ll be the first to admit that option #3 has no rational foundation, as they all appear to contradict each other.  And how could Gd contradict Himself?
But given my current mental state, I like to think it has just as much chance at being true as #1. Why?  Because it’s clear that all serve as a mechanism to transcend typical earthly interactions.  Whether we are connecting to something bigger than us, or just to ourselves on a different level, we cannot say with certainty.  And though reason would lead us to believe it is the latter, emotionally I can see how it could be the former.
And being that Im dealing with the popular mind/heart dichotomy, who’s to say that my emotions are less important than my reason on a personal level?  I know it sounds silly upon initial examination, and wouldnt hold up in a court of law…  But again, on a personal level, what is more important?  That can be argued on a rational basis. Additional clarification: on an interpersonal level, I believe we must value reason and logic over emotions for obvious reasons, most importantly, to preserve the life and rights of all.
So, which is more important on a personal level? Emotions or Reason?
I guess this comes down to what your goal in life is. If your goal in life is to be as happy as possible, then obviously your emotions are more important.  If reason brought you to sadness, then given your goal, you should discard reason. But if your goal is to be as knowledgeable as possible, then reason would be more important. If certain knowledge brought you sadness, you certainly wouldnt stop seeking knowledge, as that was your goal.
Some people might argue that emotions are more important only in matters of the heart… Like when choosing a mate.  Without the feeling of “love” how can one get married? In this case, its clear that as humans we value emotion more than reason–as many people will get married if they feel love, even if it doesnt rationally seem like a good match, whereas choose NOT to get married if everything seems good on paper, but there is no love.  Whether or not this is to our detriment can be argued as well.

Journal Entry, July 2001

I went to sleep last night imagining life was a video game. I wondered when it would end. I imagined there was just one goal I had to reach, and once I reached it, the game would be over. The goal wasnt to climb some mountain, or to rescue some girl, but it was to have some sort of realization. The realization of what is Real and True in this world. The instant the realization would come to me, the whole facade (which is this world) would fall down like white drapery in the wind and I would be in a place where I knew I would meet My Maker. The Maker. Game Over.

August 2001:
Ive thought about the video game above alot recently, and what Ive noticed is that it always ends on a good note… BUT, what if I dont get The Realization? What if, instead of accomplishing my goal, I plunge into the depths of some Super-mario endless pit? Is such a scenario even possible? Hmmm, never thought of it that way…

–But then again, wouldnt it be cool to know what happens after death? I figure dying will answer every important question Ive ever had in this world. I cant fathom a situation where nothing happens. My existence, essence, being, completely ceasing?? Wow. If there is a G-d, that must be impossible. If there is a G-d, even if nothing else of me exists after I die, at least His memory of me will exist, right? Wouldnt that at least provide me (my soul, I guess) with some sort of consciousness after I die? Only time will tell, but..

Meditation on Intelligence

Statement 1: The sole usefullness (yes, there is one) of intelligence is to attain knowledge.
Statement 2: The fact that we are intelligent, implies that we lack knowledge.
Statement 3: Without a foundation, the house falls down in the wind. With a poor foundation, the house falls down in a storm. With a good foundation the house falls down in an earthquake. With the best foundation, the house will stand up to everything the earth (and all it contains) has to offer.

Meditation on 1: Does a man work out a problem in order to get the answer?
Meditation on 2: If he already knew the answer, and understood how to get it, would he need his intelligence?
Meditation on 3: Does your way of life have a foundation? How does it hold up when it goes against the earth?

Meditations on Monkeys and Truth

I wonder if Im any better than a monkey at finding The Truth… Does a monkey even think about such things? What does a monkey try to do besides survive and procreate? He obviously doesnt need to worry about tests, wives, taxes, etc… So just as I have the ability to think about much more than necessary for my survival, couldnt I also assume the monkey has the same ability? And if he does, couldnt I even further assume that he has an even better opportunity at finding Truth than I do since he isnt plagued with insignificant thoughts in theme with those listed above? True, his capacity may be smaller, though my concerns surely fill up my capacity.


“We are so unwise that we wander about in times that do not belong to us, and do not think of the only one that does; so vain that we dream of times that are not and blindly flee the only one that is.”
~Blaise Pascal
“Societal Justice is as much a matter of fashion as nice shoes are.”
(slightly altered by YT)
~Blaise Pascal

mind/heart dichotomy

if you let the mind take over there will be no passion.
and life is null and void without passion.

and if you let the heart take over, the heart will lead itself to be broken.
and misery besets the broken hearted.